I work as a delivery supervisor for an office supply company. When we’re heavy or things are busy, I sometimes fill in as a cover driver. A couple of weeks ago, I made a delivery to someone’s house. A lady answered the door, I placed the box inside, thanked her, and started to leave when she introduced herself to me. I think her name was Amy. People rarely introduce themselves to delivery drivers, since the nature of the relationship is often so short-lived (it’s like introducing yourself to the cashier at McDonald’s). So I was a little surprised, but being polite, I smiled, shook her hand, and told her my name as well.
“Well, I just finished spending my quiet time with the Lord, and I wanted to tell you how important it is to have a relationship with our savior, Jesus Christ,” she said. “You know, this world throws a lot at us, and it’s important that we can rely on the Lord’s guidance.”
So here I am, an atheist who has gone through an agonizing deconversion over the last two years that affects everything in my personal life. I write a blog that details all the problems I have with Christianity and religion in general. But I’m also a representative of my company, and I’m interacting with a customer. Not to mention I have an extremely busy day ahead of me. So do I tell her what I think about her “private time with the Lord”?
Nope. I just couldn’t do it. If it were any other setting, I think I would have taken the bait. But there were just too many reasons not to engage. So I smiled and nodded, but just didn’t comment much until I felt like I could leave. It was a strange feeling. And as I looked at her vacuous blue eyes and unsettling smile, I wondered if I looked similar when I used to talk to people about my Christian beliefs.
On another note, sorry I haven’t posted in a while. Things have been absolutely crazy at work. January is usually our busiest time of the year, but this was the worst I’ve seen in the 9 years I’ve been doing it. Things are starting to settle down, but next week, my wife and I are taking the kids to Disney World! So I probably won’t post anything else until we’re back and settled.